{ in my world } ~ austin area photographer

Somebody told me not long ago "we are in very different places in life." I found it ironic that this person actually knows very little about my life at all. I've been melancholy and even beastly on a couple of occasions the last couple of weeks, partly due to withdrawal from Facebook, also from pressures of learning a new job and changing my whole sleep pattern (which is getting better and better!). The little "down" phase though, I believe relates to this comment which has continued to bother me a bit. While meditating and really trying to look within to search out the cause for any such sadness, my conclusion is that I feel like very few people in my life truly know me, so I feel a bit lonely.

My life is intimidating, I get that. So from afar I am going to give you a glimpse of the world I live in, and a peek at my idiosyncrasies.





In my world, it must always smell good. The photo above is of my dresser where I have a stash of perfume, fragrance is an addiction to me. I actually become obsessed with perfumes that smell good and it has given me quite a collection of scents to choose from each day, that being said I pretty much exclusively where Gucci Guilty right now.

When I exit the shower I preform lotion rituals. I have certain lotions for different areas of my body. So my legs and arms I like skin firming, and my back, shoulders, and chest I like to use hemp lotion. I have another lotion for my legs and arms that is scented, but I never use it straight from the tub, only after I have dressed as a "re-apply."

Every weekday morning that I am able, I go work out at the gym at 5:30 a.m. Yes, sometimes I oversleep. I have become infatuated with this new app on my phone that tracks my sleep cycle and wakes me up when I am in the middle of a light sleep cycle so that it's easier to drag myself from bed. Even when lots of working out, I feel my age creeping in and I am definitely having to work harder and eat less to try and fit into my clothes. This bothers me. I love to run, but I'm not that good at it. I adore yoga, it's a challenge with my back, but it makes me feel amazing. I have been working on headstands and can now do them with wall assistance quite well!

It seems like every post is about my girls, but I believe it can go without saying too much in this post that they are my everything. My parenting style is laid back but I try to teach my girls respect for all, manners, kindness, caring, how to be ladies, and how to let loose and have fun. I wish that more people could experience life around my 3 girls, they truly are the coolest kids I've ever met (yes, I'm biased but seriously they are a riot).

Tasks and chores bore me out of my mind. I'm trying to challenge myself and get better so I can be a big girl and live a responsible life with order, but I hate everything about paying bills, making calls, changing services, blah blah blah... oddly though, I'm super good at all that. I'd rather just take pictures.

Shopping eases my sorrows. I think that's part of my moodiness lately too, I am poor and haven't shopped for myself in a LOOOONG time. I know it's shallow, but I am okay admitting to that, I have some really deep areas in my life, but I have some that are completely materialistic, I see that as balance. If I ever resort to having a sugar daddy, then I think my shopping will have overtaken me. I actually put together look books for fun in preparation for when I finally do get to shop. Fashion will always hold a place in my heart.

I can sew, and actually I can sew really well. For those of you who don't know, I used to make custom clothing for children. I take pictures. Before moving to Austin I had a photography business that was really taking off. I love to write. I put myself in college when I was 25 and my English professor said she wanted a copy of my first book after she read my rough draft of my first paper, her words still inspire me. I'm handy. When I want to do something, I just figure it out and do it. I like to have polish on my nails. Since I'm not in the bar that much anymore (just some weekends I work to make ends meet), I paint my nails at least twice a week, just something that makes me smile. I appreciate a wide range of music, art, movies, books, and basically...everything. I want to try everything and I find something I like almost everywhere.

Maybe I'm scary, maybe I seem like my whole life is set and planned, but it's so wide open and I don't want restrictions or rules on it, I just want to feel it all and live it big.